亲爱的亲亲

 

Still in Lumut. The sixth day of induction course.

Using my friend's laptop, online at the resort lobby. 

 

My sixth day of induction course. No rest for Sat and Sun. Thought should be like government practice.

Lectures and physical activities arranged everyday from 8:30am to 10:30pm. And of course 6 meals a day.

Can claim for the laundry, too.

But I didn't put up weight, yet as i told my Mom...can't see my ass now from side.(kidding~~)

 

Some sms me how many % have i been brainwashed.

well..I have to say that I'm now more understanding to the government.

So, am i brainwashed?

 

Indeed I really appreciate to be provided this induction course.

First time in my life to stay with a Malay for almost 2 weeks.

Able to get know with friends of same profession in different races. Be close friend with some Malays and indians.

That's the scenario that I have been looking forward long time ago.

 

Though it's a bit sad when I found out I may not have my first love here.

nevermind. It's a starry starry night tonight in Lumut.

 

 

 

 

 

 

A bit annoying as I can't type in Chinese at this moment..

Wonder would it be my last entry before starting my housemanship at Batu Pahat.

Hmm~~I'm now at Lumut, Perak. Having my induction course.

 

Feel so complicated. Everything comes so sudden.

 

After a long period of waiting and waiting, now finally I'm able to practice my profession,

though I still not ready. Seems like I'm never get ready.

Nervous and excited. and started to feel lonely.

Wonder whom should I go to...

 

Everything comes so sudden. My heart again beating so fast, so fast. My face was so hot.

There's a guy, whom I fall to at first sight.

Didn't even have a word with him. But it just happened.

He was posted to a different place. And more important, he has someone already.

Thought he might have same feeling as me...where comes this stupid anticipation?

 

Everything comes so sudden.

And I'm going to take it with Faith. 

 

I will miss You all~~~~

 

 

摘自《星洲副刊》[教育笔记——李伟文]

 

 

 ‘ 。。。梦想非常重要，甚至比一切的知识或技能还要重要。梦想与“找个好工作赚大钱”这一类的目标不一样，梦想是一种向上向善的愿景。梦想应该不是可以计量的成就，不是经由管理手段可以达到的目标。’

 

‘ 这样的梦想可以指引出一个方向，让我们遭遇挫折或各种意外时，可以滋生出不断前进的勇气，也不至于偏离我们内心深处真正的想望。’

 

‘ 。。。每个人心中真正的梦想是当你听到或看到某些前辈，在他们那个行业或领域的努力时，会很感动，这种感动，就是你梦想之所在。’

 

‘ 梦想，虽然似乎很抽象，但是随着自己年龄愈来愈大，却觉得梦想反而是生命中最实在的东西。若是把梦想养成信念，这就是实践的力量。只要是梦想，体力上就算再疲惫再辛苦，也不算是工作，它是充满兴奋和喜悦，能够带我们走过更过瘾、更充实、更精彩的人生旅途。’

 

 

~ 与你共勉~~

 

家 真的温暖吗？

打扫干净 布置整齐 看起来幸福得让人称羡的家 会不会只是个美丽的空壳？

如果一个家

是让人焦虑不安的包袱

让人宁可在外徘徊曝晒也不愿回家乘凉

让每个人的心事自己扛

这 还算不算 家？

 

没有破碎的家 一定幸福吗？

如果都要窒息了 分手会不会才能找回各自 呼吸的权利。

 

谁错了？ 谁病了？

谁又不够努力？

 

还有那么长的路

孩子早晚提早离场

死守着那一个不知道还能撑多久

而 他们呢 还有下一个20 年 还是 散了吧？

 

我想起 海水正蓝 那个找海龙王的孩子。

我好累 欲沉进冰冷的深海里。